I think I am about to win the award for worst daughter of the year award . . .
My mom just messaged me - I haven’t hardly even gotten the time of day from her since July and now this - I can’t talk to anyone in the family yet since she has told no one else and doesn’t want them to know yet, but I have to talk to someone! -
Guess she has breast cancer, has suspected it since November, goes for a biopsy next week, likely surgery within a couple more weeks, possibly radiation/chemo after that. She won’t know for sure any of it till after the biopsy and they know what kind she has. She wasn’t planning on even telling me till after everything was “done”, but well they won’t let her go home alone after the surgery - she will have to have someone there for a few days anyway. She wants me to come stay with her.
And I would be glad to . . . if it was anyone else but my mother. I would have to board at least Tina and most likely Kori too, would need to get someone to care for the critters here at home . . . Nathanial might be able to stay here while I was gone and take care of most things, including Tina, but with his job he wouldn’t be able to care for Kori, so would still need to board her. Anyone else and I wouldn’t even hesitate - of course, when do you need me there? How else can I help? . . .
And my daughter heart wants to do that here, but I don’t think I can . . . how awful is that? This is my mother! But I just don’t think I can handle it right now, especially since things are so fragile with my depression/anxiety as is without my meds - add my mother into that mix and I am likely to go under completely.