I know I have not been on here much lately. It seems like my mom is less understanding these days. Just need to talk for a bit.
It makes me sad that she doesn't seem to understand or care any more. I try not to bother her with it and pretend I am ok when i'm not. There are times when I just want to go to her house and ask her for a hug and tell me everything is going to be ok. But she saves that for my younger sister..always something wrong with her. :(
There is a drastic change in the weather today. I woke up about 4 this morning and i hurt from my head to my feet. The pain in my feet, under my feet and in my toes makes it so hard to walk. My muscles all feel like they are on fire, my hips, knees, shoulders ... this is a first for me to have this much pain, and a headache to go along with it. I can ask does it ever end, but i already know the answer. Not much to look forward to when you hurt just sitting, unable to lay down because that hurts, tired and not thinking straight. I feel like I am only a portion of the person I was. I don't like feeling like this. Since so many people don't seem to understand this, you feel very isolated, alone, and lonely. My kids try to understand but I try not to show it in front of them. I don't want them to worry.
Sorry..just had to get a bit out, i have more but i need to find a box of Kleenex. I love you all.