I won’t type in my whole story here, but I’ve been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia for several years now. the last couple months have by far been the worst pain wise, in my life. I’ve found myself sinking deeper and deeper into a depression. Everything I try either just doesn’t help or only helps very temporarily. The Last few days have been really bad. I’m crying multiple times daily and thinking about terrible things. This morning I woke up crying. I Called and scheduled an appointment with my rheumatologist but he’s booked a month out, so I also scheduled with my primary doctor. In my honest opinion I think it’ll be a waste of time because they just want to pump me full of drugs that don’t work, but it’s all I could think of to do.
My job is extremely physical and I have a busy home life. My job and my family are being heavily affected by this. I can barely do my job at all at this point and my husband has taken over almost all the chores, which I’m thankful for but Also makes me feel useless. I dropped the kids off this morning and came home (its my day off) and started doing dishes and about 2 plates in, burst in to tears because I’m hurting so bad, but I didn’t stop because doing nothing makes me feel like garbage. I’m sitting here writing this, bawling my eyes out.
My girls and my husband are so amazing and understanding, but that’s where my support ends. People I thought were my great friends have been blowing me off the last couple months since I’ve gotten worse. I’m in so much pain physically and emotionally, I dont even know what to do. Sorry guys, I just had to get this out. thanks for listening!