Everything is so different here. I havent been on here in about a year. I dont have a clue what I am doing and I cant figure out how to do the chat.
I am having a very hard time right now. I am 27 back at home with my parents for the last 5 years. It has been so hard. I even lost my job and career I was working towards. I went to medical and nursing school. I feel like I lost everything. Even myself. I just cant get going these days. The pain and depression is overwhelming and I dont seem to be looking forward to future days considering that there is no cure and I wont ever be myself again. My family looks down on me, they are not supportive, although they do let me live here. They dont want me here though. They treat me like a burden. And they get on me about every little thing.
Friends just dont understand and ive lost so many thanks to this illness. Everyone thinks i am just lazy with no desire to be productive in life. And they always think i am just out to get attention. So, i try not to complain. I laugh and smile when i can to seem better, but then at the end of the day it just confuses them because they want to know how can i be so sick but look fine.
I know you all have similar problems and you can understand what i am going through. I just need some friends that understand. I recently deleted all my social media because it makes me sad to see people doing this and that and looking down on me. They really take their health for granted.