I’m so sorry you’ve been made to feel this way! It’s so unfair, isn’t it? I can’t say I’ve been called lazy to my face, but worry that people MIGHT think that; and overcompensate ALL the time. To my own detriment, of course.
Yesterday I thought I might fall asleep behind the wheel. The fibromyalgia fog settled over me that heavily. You’d think being that tired the pain would get tired too… noooo. Right there to torture you into staying awake.
As soon as I could I had to get home, get a hot pack on my neck/shoulder/arm, and lay down for a bit. I did so before anyone else got home. Just so I wouldn’t seem LAZY.
YOU ARE NOT LAZY. You have a health condition that can knock you right out of the game, whenever, wherever, and for however long it likes. If you had cancer, and needed to lie down , would anyone call you lazy? No. They’d say your a fighter , a survivor.
But with fibro, people can’t “see” your symptoms. It’s unfortunate; it makes me want to scream. I feel often that I’m 3 seconds away from breaking down into sobbing.
You know what the upside is to THAT MUCH frustration? I put up with ZERO b.s. None. I allow no one to push me past my tolerance level anymore. I don’t roll over while someone attempts to violate my boundaries. And there’s a strength in that… an ironic strength; that is almost as powerful as my continued physical weakness.
Ha! So… no one calls me lazy(outright) but they MAY call me another not-so-nice word that starts with ‘B’
That’s ok. If they don’t like it I invite them to walk a while in my shoes.
Well… idk if I’ve helped you to feel a little better today, but please, at the very least, Jen, know your not alone and I’m praying for you today.