Hi everyone - I am majorly depressed right now. The middle of every month, I do a breast exam and this morning I found a hard and painful lump on the outer part of my right breast. I am due for a Mammogram anyway, and so have an appointment next Tuesday - the 26th, at 7am. I am not that nervous but just very depressed and have an 'out of it feeling.' I go through enough as it is and now this. I can't seem to get to a level of peacefulness about my health. It's just ongoing and sometimes it gets hard to move forward.
The irony of all this, is that my close friend Cheri, who lives down the hall from me discovered a lump in HER breast about 2 weeks ago. She is due to have a biopsy soon. After discovering my own this morning, I went over to her apartment to visit and tell her what was going on. We both couldn't believe the timing of it all.
My stomache is a little upset right now and I couldn't eat my lunch. I have the tendency to lose a little weight when there is a change in my health that's not acceptable. I can't afford to lose as it is. I am trying to decide whether to tell my son, Jason or maybe wait until after the Mammogram?? He always wants me to tell him what's going on - but I tell him only if necessary. He does worry about me and sometimes it can disrupt his daily schedule - but he doesn't complain. So I am debating as to what to do about this. Love to all! Laurie