So, about a month ago I went to emergency for stomach pain (I thought it was probably just usual gallbladder pain) and it ended up to be a 10cm bone. No, I dont regularly (or ever) swallow things that cannot be digested… but somehow without recollection, I swallowed this bone and it punctured my bowel. I have a feeling it may have been because I was way overly tired from trying to work? Maybe brainfog had something to do with it? Idk. Had surgery and am now pretty much recovered.
Anyway even though I’m recovered, my body still wants to sleep for wayyyy longer than I used to and I’m in so much general fibro pain all the time. This weekend my hens night is on and I am DREADING it! Honestly if my close friends and family hadn’t already put money into it I would cancel. I’m so stressed about this because I don’t do well when I’m feeling like this in social situations let alone with alcohol too.
Then there’s the wedding. Oh boy. I feel as though I’m not going to enjoy it and i’m so upset at myself for that. It’s meant to be a day of pure joy and happiness, not worrying about if you’re going to have to take opioids that knock you out because you’re in too much pain!!!
Of course i’m still going to try my best to enjoy these next few weeks, it’s just made me painfully aware of all the good things/experiences that I’ve lost(or have changed for the worse) in my life because of fibro.
Thanks for listening x